I've been pretty busy since I came back from Spain in middle July. Just a day after, my mom got sick again with the same problem she had previously, then she got better faster than the first time, then I decided to clean our home and get rid of a loooooooot of things (mainly clothes and VHS for now, have to sort my and my parents' other stuffs) and got back to work last week.
Since Monday September 4th I got back to work, I kept my job as an animator in school, watching over kids during lunch time and late afternoon. I decided to take more hours to earn more money for later, when I'll leave my parents and live with my bf.
Because of this, I have even less time to draw than last year.
Moreover, (and it wasn't planned) one of the bosses at the town hall called me a few days before the start of the school year and asked me if I could also work on Wednesday mornings to help my colleagues welcome the kids before they go into class... I wasn't expecting them to call me for this. I thought it through and in the end I accepted, because I love my fellows and wanted to help them.
Unfortunately, this also means that I can't stay up late on Tuesdays like before (and like I wanted) and draw during livestreams... It was like, the only day I could use to do this and wouldn't be disturbed by my family... I'm really sad about it.
I'd like to draw but I've no idea since I went back to work (couldn't even think about writing more of TLM). I'm too busy with all the kids or tired to think of anything to do. And when I finally have something in mind, there are others things I've to do. Uuuuugh !!!
There's also something that upset me about my work and that got me into a little depression...
Before summer and the end of school, I'd talked with my boss about staying in their team for the next school year, lunch and afternoon, he was perfectly fine with it and even happy about it. I wanted to make a Comics workshop and write a novel with the older kids in elementary school this year (it's an excuse to draw at school with them). But when I received my assignment in the mailbox, I was shocked to see the town hall had put me into 2 schools at the same time... I called them and asked what was the problem and they told me the second team in my school was already complete. I still don't understand what happened, even my colleagues don't get it !!
Now I'm working in the same elementary school during lunch, and in a kindergarten during late afternoons...
And I hate this.
Because my back hurts all the time since I always have to clean or tidy something or some kid, I hate being surronded by screaming and crying children that can't prevent themself from wetting their clothes and that won't listen to you unless you scream as well.
I still have my wednesdays (the rest of the day) and late fridays free, but at those times I just want to rest and laze around on internet or watch tv...
I'd like to draw though, but I've no idea. I want to draw/write for TLM, I'd like to develop my own story and do comics about it (my own version of Cinderella in 2 or 3 books) maybe draw a real doujin [I installed Manga Studio on my computer like an hour ago, and don't know how to use it] (spamano or yuri on ice, or something else, idk) and whateveeeer...!!
I even planned to go in Ireland in mid-october with my bf to visit a friend that just moved there for work, but I'm not even sure it'll be feasible, GAAAH
I hope it'll get better once I'm used to my shifts...!